Saturday, July 12, 2014

Happy Birthday to Rose (Hejira)


MY 38th BIRTHDAY GIFT: 3 hours holding the deep focus and attention of 30+ men.
Not everyday men, MEN ON THE VERGE, men showing up, stepping up, and surrendering into being better men, better lovers, better contributors to this world and the women in it.
They dove into their bodies, grounding and releasing the tightness that holds them back, they contacted and fed their energetic systems prepping for major connections. They confronted their fears and kicked them the fuck out of their lives, they stood up to be judged by a sword of love and exposed their hearts.
These men are Warriors! Not because they hide behind a mask of tough masculinity but because they are willing to travel to their darkest parts and search for their Holy Grail. They found discomfort, fear, unknowing and the horrible action of actually being seen and known.
And they did it with women, fully in trust, fully showing up every moment.
I love this work. I love these men. I love Charmaine Haworth for holding down this event with me and wielding her sweet sword of truth. And I loveMike Hrostoski (the men's coach), who when I told him that I really felt called to work with men said hell yeah, you would rock that, how can I support you?
Thank you men for inspiring me to be a better person. Thank you for showing up in the huge way that you do. I am committed to you.
You fucking rocked my birthday!

Friday, July 11, 2014

Pearl Jam -- Soldier Field, July 11th, 1995.

"What you are listening to is live from the Pearl Jam/Bad Religion show. We are getting the direct feed from the board. Enjoy."


  1. Release
  2. Go
  3. Last Exit
  4. Spin the Black Circle
  5. Tremor Christ
  6. Corduroy
  7. Whipping
  8. I Got Shit
  9. Dissident
  10. Even Flow
  11. Improv/Sick o’ Pussies
  12. Deep
  13. Jeremy
  14. Glorified G
  15. Daughter (This Boy/The Real Me/W.M.A./Another Brick in the Wall)
  16. Animal
  17. Habit
  18. Jam/Lukin
  19. Little Wing (Tease)
  20. Not For You
  21. Elderly Woman
  22. Immortality
  23. Alive
  24. Porch

Monday, July 7, 2014

Siskel & Ebert

Two more Chicagoians.

An archive to delve into. I'm gonna start with the episode with Seven, Canadian Bacon, and Showgirls all reviewed.

Friday, July 4, 2014

Patriotism

"I guess before we left the U.S., since this is the last night in the U.S...(U.S.A. chant breaks out)...This is a toast...
I guess I just wanted to clarify that whatever we said, whatever we said tonight, whatever we said in the other cities, we have an opinion, and it comes from a position of caring.
And it comes from a position of caring for our country. And I think that's what makes you a patriot. It's when you care for our country, when you care. And you just don't care for the country, it's the people in it. We got great oceans, mountains, canyons, cities...but it's the people in it that make up this country. 
And we know you've been through a lot and I think when you care about that, that makes you a patriot.
And it's not necessarily about victory, it's not necessarily about corporations, and what's good for them, it's not about money, it's about the people.
So when we leave this country, I want you to know...I guess we just hope that you're proud of us when we leave here & take our songs abroad. We hope we have your support, and we hope that you're proud of us for having an opinion, and a stand... Thank you very much."

--Eddie Vedder  (Holmdel, July 14th, 2003) -- encore break before going into 'Growin' Up' by Bruce Springsteen.

Wembley Stadium. July 4th, 1985.


4th of July

I woke up from a drunken slumber at 1:44am so I could spin this for the first time of many during the next twenty-four hours.


Friday, June 27, 2014

I was walking with my brother
And he wondered what's on my mind
I said what I believe in my soul
Ain't what I see with my eyes
And there's no turning back this time

I am a patriot

I was walking with my girlfriend
She looked so fine
I said, "Baby, what's on your mind?"
She said, "I want to run like the lion
released from the cages
released from the rages
burning in my heart tonight."

I am a patriot

And I ain't no communist
And I ain't no capitalist
And I ain't no socialist
And I ain't no imperialist
And I ain't no democrat
Sure ain't no republican
I only know one party
And it is freedom

I am, I am, I am
I am a patriot
And I love my country
Because my country is all I know

And the river opens for the righteous
And the river opens for the righteous
And the river opens for the righteous
Someday

For My Dad. On My Birthday.


Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Driftin' Back

I used to dig Picasso
I used to dig Picasso
hey now now, hey now now
I used to dig Picasso

then the big tech giant came along
and turned him into wallpaper
hey now now, hey now now
I used to dig Picasso

I'm driftin' back
I'm driftin' back
I'm driftin' back
I'm driftin' back

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Holy Cow!

My favorite story this year. An inspiration.

From the Chicago Sun-Times:


Harry Caray diary tracked every drink, every bar in 1972

Harry Caray (left) Steve Stone team up Cubs broadcast booth Wrigley Field this WGN-TV file photo. No date has been
Harry Caray (left) and Steve Stone team up in the Cubs broadcast booth at Wrigley Field in this WGN-TV file photo. No date has been provided.

It isn’t the “Vampire Diaries” or “Diary of a Wimpy Kid.” It sure isn’t the diary of Anne Frank.
But it is a diary, of sorts. An 8-by-5-inch, dark green, 1972 “Day Book” owned, once upon a time, by famed baseball broadcaster Harry Caray.
Grant DePorter, CEO of the Harry Caray’s chain of eateries, inherited the diary, one of eight, all from the ’70s and early ’80s, in four boxes of memorabilia, World Series tickets and cashed checks, that the executor of Caray’s estate found when he cleaned out his office.
Knowing my interest in all things historical, DePorter asked if I wanted to take a peek at one, and I swung by Harry’s and walked away with 1972.
I should say right away that this is not a Dear Kitty, pour-out-your-heart, frank-assessment-of-my-friends kind of diary. Old Harry was not big on introspection, as he was the first to admit.
“I’m a convivial sort of guy. I like to drink and dance,” he told an interviewer once.
Caray was the Cardinals’ color broadcaster for many years in St. Louis. Driven out of town in 1969, he migrated to Chicago, via a misfire year in Oakland, to announce first for the hapless White Sox, finishing his career in a golden twilight glow with the Cubs.
In 1972, he had just begun his tenure with the Sox. A savvy businessman, Caray cut a deal pegged to ballpark attendance, which doubled, largely thanks to his flamboyant presence. It would make him very wealthy, though in 1972 he was still tallying each bar tab.
“Remember, you used to be able to deduct a three-martini lunch,” DePorter said.
Saturday, Jan. 1, lists four bars: the Back Room, still on Rush Street, plus three long-ago joints: 20 E. Delaware, Sully’s and Peppy’s, with expenses for each $10.30, $9.97, $10, and $8.95. This in a year when a six-pack of Old Style set you back $1.29.
You needed to cite who you entertained to get the write-off, so on New Year’s Day he lists Dave Condon, the Tribune sports columnist; Billy Sullivan, who owned Sully’s; and Joe Pepitone, the former Yankees first baseman who had been traded to the Cubs.
And so it begins. A chain of old-time Chicago bars — Riccardo’s, Boul Mich, Mr. Kelly’s. A posse of early 1970s sports figures — Wilt Chamberlain, Don Drysdale, Gale Sayers. Plus a few unexpected blasts from the past: boxer Jack Dempsey, comedian Jack Benny.
“These guys did nothing but go out and have a few cocktails,” said Jimmy Rittenberg, who owned Faces, which Caray visited 14 times in 1972. “I don’t know how they did it. They were 20, 30 years older than me and I couldn’t keep up with them.”
Jan. 16 something unusual happens. Caray is in Miami, yet there are no expenses, just one enigmatic word, “Super.”
After that break, if indeed it was, comes 288 consecutive days in bars, not only in Chicago, but New York City, and of course on the road with the Sox, beginning with spring training in Sarasota.
The unbroken streak pauses Nov. 3, when all we get is “to K City @310.” The only completely blank day is Monday, Nov. 6 — what must THAT have been like? Then off to the races again.
Clay Felker, founder of New York magazine. Caray’s former boss, A’s owner Charlie Finley. A few surprises: Sox owner John Allyn. Several times. That surprised me, though it shouldn’t have. All I knew about their relationship was that Allyn fired Caray, and Caray replied with this timeless retort:
“I can’t believe any man can own a ballclub and be as dumb as John Allyn. Did he make enough to own it, or did he inherit it? He’s a stupid man. This game is much too complicated for a man like John Allyn.”
But that was 1975, the epic year when White Sox players complained they did so poorly because of Caray’s critical broadcast booth assessments, drawing my favorite Caray line: “Hey, you can’t ballyhoo a funeral.”
So what was it like to stand in the Pump Room (16 visits in 1972) and hoist a few with Caray?
“I was out with Harry Caray a couple of times,” the Tribune’s Rick Kogan said. “It was always at the Pump Room. He was one of the most charming people in the world.”
How so?
“Drunk but joyful,” Kogan said. “It always wound up being a joyful, laughter-filled time.”
Caray was always surrounded by friends like TV sportscaster Tim Weigel.
“He really liked Tim Weigel,” Kogan said. “I was an audience, at best, with those two characters around. They had incredible mutual affection. There was no better place to share that mutual affection than over way too many cocktails.”
I assumed that White Sox broadcasters today do not hang out in bars every night fraternizing with ballplayers and other assorted celebrities. But, not liking to assume things, I phoned the Sox and asked whether current announcers Steve Stone, who shared a mike with Caray, or Ken Harrelson, burned the midnight oil.
They declined to comment.
That kinda says it all, huh?
Toward the end of the diary, on Dec. 24, comes the kicker. After spending at least 354 of the previous 357 days in bars (DePorter counted 61 different tap houses) Caray writes, in a bold hand, “Vacation in Acapulco. Then “Vacation” every day until the year runs out.
Which makes me wonder how he knew he was on vacation. I guess if nobody was playing baseball in front of him and when he looked over the rim of his drink he saw Mexico, then he knew he was on vacation.
But give Caray credit. As old-fashioned, and perhaps even pathological, as the bar-crawling seems today, there is another truth worth mentioning: Harry Caray could have taken his drinks at home. He went out because it was his job.
“He felt the bartender and bar people were his fans,” Rittenberg said. “He felt he was responsible He would stop in 10 joints. He was just a gregarious guy.”

Monday, June 2, 2014

All Apologies

Peter Gabriel, Kiss, Hall & Oates, Linda Ronstadt, Cat Stevens, the E Street Band...and then Nirvana performed. And I forgot that the previous three hours even existed. In the wake. Powerful stuff.


Friday, May 23, 2014

Writing

"When I face the desolate impossibility of writing five hundred pages, a sick sense of failure falls on me, and I know I can never do it. Then gradually, I write one page and then another. One day's work is all I can permit myself to contemplate."

--John Steinbeck, Travels with Charley: In Search of America